I've been thinking, is my trust for Jesus really that firm that no matter what happens, I will not doubt or change my stand when judgement day comes ? Am I really that scared to tell people how much I love Jesus ? It's so hard. And I don't know really, who are the people that are going to be there for me when I really need someone. I know God will, but which of my friends will ? I'm really sorry about all these questions I've been asking, I just need some answers. Just that I've been feeling so down and insecure about things, I really just need someone, to just get me to my feet again. I can't hide the fact that I'm sad, I don't know why. I'm sorry everyone for being such a depressing thing around you, really.

I just need an answer. Cause so many people told me no matter what, they will be here for me. But really, how many of you will really mean what you said ? Like what if one day I'm framed for something that I didn't do, will you believe me ? I don't know. It's not that I doubt our friendship, it's just that somethings are easier said than done. I'm really sorry everyone. I don't know what's happening to me. I'm not the same, happy, cheerful me anymore.

I don't know, I really don't know about anything anymore. I'm confused, I don't know if I should care anymore. I don't know, I really don't. I'm sorry, really am.